Time is the fire in which we burn

Each minute bursts in the burning room,
The great globe reels in the solar fire,
Spinning the trivial and unique away.
(How all things flash! How all things flare!)
What am I now that I was then?
May memory restore again and again
The smallest color of the smallest day:
Time is the school in which we learn,
Time is the fire in which we burn.
— Delmore Schwartz

I set myself the goal of shooting more personal work last year but between my wedding work, two young children, being seriously ill and…life, it didn’t happen. I’m determined that 2019 won’t be the same story.

After consecutive warm and clear days this morning it was foggy. Objects went from glossy to matte and the atmosphere killed the sound. Everything was dull greys, blues and muted greens.

The weather suited my mood and I took a detour from dropping the kids off at school. I did a circuit of the crematorium.

Personal projects of course feed into my professional work and one of the things I want to experiment more with is shooting jpeg in camera. I started out with film photography and I have been trying to emulate the feel of that in my digital work.

With a film camera your choice of lens, but especially your choice of film embued the final images with a definite character. Once you had experience of a range of films you could then select the right one for the mood you were trying to instil. Kodak Tri-X would give you a gritty, contrasty look with plenty of grain. Kodak Gold would give you that warm sunny feel, with pink highlights. Fujifilm Superia would give slightly cooler tones, with green shadows.

One of the big advantages of film of course, was that you had to get pretty much everything right in camera, with very little post processing. That’s a big draw to me, as I’d rather be out shooting, really giving it my full concentration, that shoot with the intention of sitting at the computer for hours afterwards fixing any mistakes in photoshop.

For this shoot I used my X-Pro2 and shot Acros with a red filter. I bumped the highlights and shadows up to +4 and the noise reduction down to -2. I also used heavy grain. All of these photos are pretty much straight out of camera with perhaps only slight exposure changes and minimal cropping. I used the 35mm f2 lens.